I want to be the things you see in me

- Tasjie

You know how sometimes you watch one of those sappy romance movies, where at some point he has to go away for whatever reason, and while they're saying goodbye she kisses him then just turns around and walks away, and then you're thinking, "That was bull! Go back there and give him a proper goodbye," and you think that you could never do that to someone you love?

Yeah well, I didn't think I would either, but I did. See, my fiancé, who still lives in the States, was up for a few days, and I had to take him to the bus eventually right? So I waited in line with him, then when I knew he would have to get on his bus, I kissed him, he said "I love you," and I whispered a barely-audible "I love you, too." Then I rubbed his chest a couple times, whispered and even less-audible "Bye," and just turned around and walked away.

I wish I hadn't done it, but it seemed like the best thing to do at the time. I'm tired of always having to say goodbye, and I don't like crying in front of him. But then after I walked away, I felt awful and even worse than I would have felt. I almost went back to him, but instead I walked to my car.

I'm lucky that I'm marrying someone like him, because he doesn't get angry or offended. He said he knows how I feel about him, and although it caught him off guard, he got over it. Which doesn't really make me feel any better about it, but it does make me feel better about him. If that's even possible.

The point here is that there will always be awful things you'll have to go through, and the only thing you can do is make the best of it. If you must say goodbye to someone, even temporarily, then you better make it the best goodbye you've ever done in your whole life. Also, it really helps to make sure that you tell that person how much you truly care for them and maybe throw in an extra hug and kiss.

You know them all so well, those things you see in me.