It's when I'm at my worst that you're at your best.

- Salvador

God always seems to give me good things when I least expect them; not when I want them or feel like I need them. But at the most perfect moment.

Just when I feel like I've lost something, He gives me something else. Sometimes, I think it's just to prove to me that He is my provider when I'm doubting. Sometimes, I think it's just because He loves me. It's never anything I did - I certainly don't deserve any of it.

There are many skeptics out there that believe God doesn't care because "life is so miserable." Life is only miserable if we choose to let it be, to believe it is. I know, "God lets bad things happen." That has never been a convincing argument to me. Especially when I hear about situations that could have been prevented by other people.

"But what about natural disasters, like hurricane Katrina?" you might ask. Yeah, we totally took care of that mess... You know, there are some things that we just can't control, we can only take the situation and turn it whichever way we need to to survive. There are so many people in the world who are capable of helping those suffering. But, out of sight, out of mind, right? Yeah, I can totally see how God would let such atrocities happen. (SARCASM)

If only everyone trusted God more, if everyone prayed, if everyone were truly one in Christ like the Bible says we should be. If only we took care of the things we can take care of and let God handle the rest...

When you feel so powerless, what are you gonna do?

Soo... as a reply to request from a suggestion I gave to Gina (yeah, figure that one out), I kinda sorta half-promised that I would learn to play and sing the song Powerless by Nelly Furtado and then facebook it. Yeah, not gonna happen any time soon, Gina.

For one thing, every time I go to record it, I choke up. Just like I do when I have to sing by myself in front of people who aren't blood related. Yeah, I know, I did a few songs for my friends while they were helping me pack up. But that's a little different. I just can't seem to get past that initial nervousness that tells me I will mess up, and then I do.

Secondly, I have nothing that is adequate enough for my liking to produce a good quality sound. Tried my sister's camera, that wasn't very good. Tried a webcam, but those are always iffy. It's just not going very well.

Thirdly, and I know this will be hard to believe, but I'm no Nelly Furtado. She can do stuff that I can't. Like make a good music video. Get a back-up band. Get on the radio...

So here's my apology to Gina, in case I made a promise I can't keep. I don't think it's gonna happen. I'll do it live for you one day. Just don't ever expect me to be on the radio anytime soon. (Like you did in the first place, right?)

By the way Gina, you should be updating our blog soon... If we ever remember how to sign in, hehe.

Hey you the one outside...

It's really good to HEAR YOUR VOICE!

Well I don't really like yours, singer from Hinder. Listen I know you're all popular and stuff, but I still don't like you, or this song. Actually, no, the song is ok.... it's just you. Honestly, it sounds ten times better when sung opera-style, but whatever. I guess I'll just live with. Plus I've already complained about this song in my blog.

Speaking of opera, Gina and I have decided that any rock or pop song can be sung like opera. It's really funny too. Yeah, it's all fun and games until someone loses their voice... (Usually me.) Where am I going with this? Oh yeah... if you ever hear someone singing "Lips of an Angel" like an opera, you know I'm probably around somewhere (within a 50km radius, no doubt.)

Anyway, check out my friends blogs, if you're not already one of them. And of course, the new one that Gina, Alana and I created. It's bound to make you laugh... like, a lot. Go for it!!

Coming from the lips of an angel, saying those words it makes me weak... *I mean* weep.

If I wrote you a love note that made you smile with every word I wrote...

Justin Timberlake... I friggin love that song. It's just that great.

For some reason, my life is defined by awkward events. It just happens that way. I know other people who have this awkward things happening to them all the time too. It's so weird.

Awkward situation 1: Walking around a place that you don't live in or know very well and a foreigner comes to ask you directions.
Today I was in Toronto, a few blocks from the CN Tower, listening to very loud music when some guy catches my attention. He asks me where the "big tower" is. Uhhhh.... In his defense, it was cloudy out. He also asked if I knew where there were any hotels in the area. I pointed to the giant Marriott across the street. Sadly, I could not point him in the direction of a drug store for film for his camcorder. But I'm sure he could have gone to the the largest Canadian Tire in Canada that was beside the Marriott.

Awkward Situation 2: Riding on a bus with a teacher.
No matter how well you know the teacher, how well you get along, how long ago they taught you, this will always be awkward. Period.

Awkward situation 3: Wrong lyrics.
Singing along to a song with other people, thinking you know what the heck you're doing. You don't. You start either making up the words and making everyone laugh, or going "And bla bla, dooo do de do da da watermelon." Go for the awkward turtle.

Awkward Situation 4: Broad sweeping generalizations in the presence of someone who fits that category.
Yup, you went and made fun of the Catholics again forgetting that one of your friends is Catholic. You brush it off, saying it's due to your atheism. Even if you're a protestant. Or a Jew. Or a Buddhist.

Awkward Situation 5: Getting caught and admitting the truth.
You sleep through your 8:30 class (who can blame you?), and later on in the day you see your teacher, even make eye contact. When they ask how you've been the past couple weeks, and why you weren't in class that morning, you are forced to admit that you accidentally slept through it. If you're lucky, like me, you have to try to explain it in another language. You end up blurting out that you probably would have fallen asleep in class anyway, not realizing how that would sound. Awkward turtle. Run.

Awkward Situation 6: Awkward connections.
You know, when you find out someone from high school is dating your sister's best friend from college. Or finding out your boyfriend's cousin lives two doors down. Or that the guy you randomly hooked up with at that party is your 1st cousin. Or that your least favourite teacher is your girlfriend's favourite uncle.

AWKWARD!!!!

Because.... I could see us holding hand, walking on the beach our toes in the sand.